I had a decent afternoon conversation, more of a formal confabulation with a best friend of mine at a nearby café’ just after Physiology. A mutual talk over a cup of hot cocoa soaked in semi-dissolved marshmallows, definitely not the best description but I should bother less about it. Nonetheless I was never meant to be a food critic of a food blogger like those that typically spread throughout the internet capturing every single mouth-watering orgasmic food photography that drives me insane especially when I take my half an hour study break past midnight.
I told Mike that I was Hitler within me, I partially posses the inane, schizophrenic, deranged of this icon. Adolf Hitler was known due to all the unforgivable, unfathomable evil he has caused during World War II, but let’s all put that aside. He isn’t entirely bad, and when I mention this; it does not mean that I am a Nazi supporter of any kind. Somehow I just noticed the infinitesimal resemblance in character between him and I. Hitler has always tried to make everyone the same, Arian. Which would create unity among his followers. But, he went about doing the wrong way. He found a great if not horrific form of population control.
Which is why I mentioned to Mike the other day, I simply cannot comprehend when it comes to dealing with people of different thinking and mindsets. Yes, I appreciate the entire diversity of a new spectrum, creativity and innovative thoughts that will flourish and nourish our hard-to-grasp future. But if it lies parallel to ‘my’ thinking, I simply relish you because you are better than me, little less of an idol but you will eventually gain my respect. But what if your opinions and outlooks totally diverged and it does not interlinked with my concept? You see the point where it drives me mad? That’s the exact point.
I cannot accept the fact that people have a mindset worst than a cow. Maybe that sounded a little rude, I shall rephrase. I am unable to tolerate with mindsets different from mind, and I will strive my very best to convince them and prove to them that they are wrong subconsciously after a series of debates which normally ended fast because I do not find them easy to obtain my thoughts. Just like Hitler, he believed that his master Aryan race needed to conquer all other races/sub-species of humans that he felt were impure as well as non-master race quality humans of the caucasoid sub-species. I just want people to think like me, not entirely or else it will be chaos but on the same side, as humans and not as cows.
Maybe I should start building real relationships with people and attempt to mold, shape, create them the way I want them to be; which is something that I sublimely do out of control and eventually drives people away. I assumed that it will occur that way, hence the best solution is to stick to my own sole island and travel across countries that have the same protocols as I have and build a nation across my own solid mind, deliberately.